Here's the deal, I have all these things I would love to do, be, have, etc. However I can never seem to stick with some of the things I love the most. Although I'm not writing on here to become the next big writer... Just simply for a space to discuss life and the happenings of it. Having a blog encouraged me to write every day or weekly at least for a little while. But then like many other things I enjoy I got too damn busy for it. Or forgot. And then there was laundry to do. Or both of my full time jobs to run off too. Perhaps I went to grab coffee with friends and enjoy real genuine amazing human connection rather than typing into the cyper world... So either way I found some other thing to do. So for over a month I haven't just done a written rant. No gratitude lists blasted into the cyberspace. Just little ole' me writing lists on papers and throwing them somewhere into my bag. Where they go next, who knows. But at least for a brief moment I got a thought out. I reminded myself of something whether it was to get cat food, a line from my favorite poem, things I could improve, or perhaps who I needed to make amends to for being a jerk.
Speaking of being a jerk. I was so childish the other day and I am quite embarrassed by my actions. The story is basically, one thing led to another...before I knew it I was in front of the house I lived in when I was 8 years old(which is now green and has a pool and some other strange family living in it), with my mother, boyfriend, and her new boyfriend. And guess who happened to jump out of her car and leave her purse and her keys in the car? That's right, this one <--. So that was a good start. The next genius thing I decided to do, was rudely snap at Anthony when he said something ridiculous... And then, get ready, the unbelievable happened! I said "I hate you, too!", yes, outloud and with an very intense death stare I'm sure. Which was followed by my poor boyfriend saying "Uhh, I'll call AAA." It's true I said those words to some dude I don't even really know. But what I do know is, he is way too conservative, has an insincere vibe, and is too charming to be up to any good. I know I sound silly, trust me I know. But REALLY, he has that "jerk energy" like "ewwww, I cannot even take it to sit next to you for one more minute at this amazing restaurant!!" Can you believe I said "I hate you"? Ha, and it's not like I've had this relationship with this man for very long. I've literally spoken on the phone with him a few times(when my mother forced the phone at me), had dinner with him at Chima, and well yea, that might be all. BUT I KNOW, he is up to know good. I mean don't YOU know that I am ALL KNOWING and ALWAYS right? Duh. I mean how completely foolish and immature of me. However that phrase was the best pick out of the many lines running though my head. My plan at the time was to read of the whole script I had for him. The script was essentially just a brutal character assassination. Which I so badly wanted to spit out! Followed by my fist having a date with his face... So I suppose that the "I hate you" was better than his other options. I mean if I was him and I was given multiple choice...I would choose that simple loaded sentence. So, now I need to try to make that right. Puke. Sooooo not willing to do so right now... But perhaps in the future. I hope so. But forget about him.
I'm taking all these amazing classes this summer! 21 credits of pure awesomeness!! I'm not so much digging the math classes, but so it goes. I love my anthro, french, and art class this session! And I am super pumped for the oceanography lab that starts in about 5 weeks!
And uhhhh, UTAH IN AUGUST?!!?! HECK YA. See all my Utah peeps soon! I cannot wait.
I made dinner and I'm pretty sure I just heard my boyfriend's car door shut. That is my cue to exit stage left. Hope all is well with you. And may you have fun on all your adventures!
Happy Trails!
Bree
p.s. I heard this cover today and I love it more and more with each listen. ENJOY!
